In the yesteryear , Aimee Lou has open up about imposter syndrome and body dysmorphia — revealing she used to pen savage words on her mirror as a mode of berating herself .
Content warning: This post discusses body dysmorphia and body image difficulties.
In a new interview withGQ, Aimee recalled a paranoid spiral she had during the first week on set after learning that HBO execs were apparently reluctant to cast her — meaning thatThe White Lotuscreator,Mike White, had to fight in order to get her on board.
“Someone told me how much Mike had fought for me. They said ‘it had to be you, no matter what HBO said,’” she remembered. “It was honestly from the nicest place, but my little head goes: ‘HBO didn’t want me. And I know why HBO didn’t want me, it’s because I’m ugly. Mike had to say ‘Please let me have the ugly girl!’ That was the thing that was in my head.”
Notably, some users brought up the topic of “imposter syndrome” and how it can wreak havoc on our minds. This is something that Aimee Lou has talked about in the past, admitting that she struggled a lot during “the first few photoshoots” she did in her career. “I was thinking, ‘What the hell am I doing here?’ Because I’m not a model, and this isn’t my comfort zone at all,’” she toldGrazia in 2021.
“I have suffered with body dysmorphia my whole life,” she said, discussing her intimate scenes on Netflix’sSex Educationand feeling that she should only eat “salads” before shooting. “I was so harsh to myself. I actually wrote on my mirror when I was younger ‘fat’ in lipstick, so that every day I’d go to it and go,OK, just remind yourself that that’s what you are,” she remembered before saying that she’s learned to feel empowered by embracing her body.
“Learning that perfection doesn’t exist, and that beauty lies in those flaws and those individualities and those nuances — it’s just the most liberating thing ever because you’re striving for something that doesn’t exist…you’re never going to look, to you, what you think perfect is until you just go,Oh, I am the way I am,” she said.
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