scream , crying , throwing up .

There’s really nothing like the feeling of watching the season finale of your favorite show, clutching your pillow and wheeze-crying as you watch your most treasured character bite the dust.

Some character deaths are just so painful that they make you want to stop watching the show entirely. I’m usually strong enough to power through, despite my tear-stained cheeks and that feeling like your chest has been hollowed out. Then I’ll talk to people about the tragedies that characters experienced as if I were there myself. Maybe I get too attached to fictional people on my screen. But that’s neither here nor there.

Anyway, please be aware — while we’re discussing a number of different shows today, the most recent one isThe Last of Us, and there are MAJOR spoilers ahead for that one. Tread carefully, and don’t say I didn’t warn you. And with that, here’s a roundup of 17 of the most harrowing TV show deaths that I will never recover from.

1. Tara Maclay—Buffy the Vampire Slayer

2. Lance Sweets—Bones

3. Poussey Washington—Orange is the New Black

4. Ben Sullivan— Scrubs

5. Seymour—Futurama

6. Marvin Eriksen Sr.—How I Met Your Mother

7. Bobby Singer— Supernatural

8. Hodor— Game of Thrones

9. Mona Simpson— The Simpsons

10. Wallace— The Wire

11. Boo— Fleabag

12. Sarah Lynn— Bojack Horseman

13. Lady— Game of Thrones

14. Sean Devlin— Derry Girls

15. Ashtray— Euphoria

16. Glenn Rhee— The Walking Dead

And finally, 17. Joel Miller— The Last of Us

Tara and Willow from "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" sit together smiling

Sweets from "Bones" sits smiling

Poussey from "OITNB" sits smiling

Ben and Cox from "Scrubs" stand together, Ben is smiling and Cox has his arms folded

Seymour (Fry's dog from "Futurama") sits with his eyes shut on the side of the road, looking old and frail

Marshall hugging Lily from "HIMYM" with a hand over his face, tearing up

Bobby from "Supernatural" inside

Hodor from "Game of Thrones" distressed, lying on a snow-covered ground with branches around him

Homer Simpson looks at starry night sky while sitting on a car hood in a quiet, open landscape

Wallace from "The Wire" wearing a casual shirt, in a close-up scene inside a room

Boo and Fleabag from "Fleabag" sit together at a cafe table

Sarah Lynn and Bojack from "Bojack Horseman" together inside a motel room, Sarah Lynn stands on the mattress.

Lady from "Game of Thrones" sitting outside, looking alert, next to a wooden post and barrels in a rustic setting

Claire from "Derry Girls" dressed as an angel in a white outfit with feathered wings and a halo, looking upset

Ashtray from "Euphoria" with a buzz cut looks surprised, wearing a casual top in dim lighting, with a red dot on forehead

Glenn from "The Walking Dead" with blood all over his face, looking confused

A person with facial hair, wearing a collared shirt, is outside, looking thoughtfully ahead. Trees and blurred foliage are in the background